In less than a year, I went from obese to normal/bordering perhaps on underweight. Last April 1, 2012, I was 220+++ pounds(And I was already exercising before I had this weight). April 1, 2013 I am maintaining 125 pounds.

It wasn't an easy year. Everyday, I wanted to quit. Everyday, I wanted to throw all the gym equipment and sneakers to the dumpster and go back to my old life of just sitting down and not caring about my health at all. It wasn't easy. Sweating and puking all over the place, with no pain killers strong enough to prevent the pain. The food portions weren't amusing, but just sad. I wanted to eat a whole box of donuts and pizza all by myself. The steak, bacon, stew, ice cream and cake were very inviting, how can I deprive myself of that?

The only reason to keep on going was because I had a friend who worried about me, my diabetes and my hypertension. She never allowed me to quit. And because of her, I am back to my fit self once more.

It was a terrible experience, losing my confidence and isolating myself from society because I was afraid to be judged. I didn't want to see the look on people's faces when they saw me in sweat pants and XXL-shirts. They made me feel like I was a stupid fat blob. And every party I went to, even if no one said it, I felt unwelcome. From the star of the party, I became a wall flower. It depressed me, but I never had anyone to talk to about it. I even distanced myself from my friends. I'm just glad it was over like a bad dream. I'm glad that my friend's fought with me, and found me in the darkest corner of my life.

Everyday, I workout because I am petrified to go back to that old me. Now I got my life back. I am no longer a diabetic. My hypertension is well-managed, and I am happy when I look at the mirror again. I am scared of how superficial I feel about trying to maintain my weight. But the same friends told me: "It doesn't matter if you gain weight, what matters is you keep a healthy lifestyle. A little fat is not that bad, just make sure that you are in control of your health"

That's why for my birthday, I wished that I will stay healthy until I die. Healthy, not necessarily sexy, but who am I kidding, it'd be nice to be sexy and healthy until I grow old.